I don’t usually post about personal topics but I felt like I had to get some things straight in my mind.
So I am on lithium and an anti psychotic for bipolar disorder. I feel like the medication makes me very very lethargic. I don’t have much drive or motivation. It makes me feel like my life is passing me by because I just don’t seem to DO anything of much. I just wake up and doss around. I don’t wash much or clean or do much of anything. I just kind of potter.
I would like my life to be different. I would like to have some creative goals and fulfillment. I would like to be able to achieve things and not feel so dopey and dozy.
The thing is I can’t really remember a time that I wasn’t on medication. I’m not sure if I could survive without it. The thing is I don’t really understand what bipolar disorder is. The mental health professionals are very frustrating because they just say that everyone has mental health problems.
These are just some random thoughts. I might post more later.